So to the boys who have never had their heart broken maybe reading this you will gain some sort of idea of why girls can end up acting the way that they do.
I have had my heart broken - Twice - This may not seem a-lot - I have obviously had more than two boyfriends, and seen more than two guys - I have. But only twice have I allowed my heart to be broken, the other relationships - I never let it happen.
I first had my heart broken when I was 18 - I had been with that person for about a year and a half, they were my first serious relationship and they were the first person I ever actually loved and cared for and trusted, not only trusted them in the sense that I believed that they were true to me, but I trusted them with my heart. I was wrong obviously, as it ended badly and they went off with another person. I spent about half a year single after this, purposely, saw boys, but never let myself fall for them, kept strong, and if anything I probably came across really 'hard' and non-approachive (This is a thing girls do to protect themselves).
At 19 - I had my next serious relationship, this time, it was for three and a half years, it was serious, we lived together, and we were making life plans, now trusting someone is one thing, but trusting someone after 3 and a half years is different in itself, that person is like part of you - you don't exactly expect someone that close to betray you, but it happened, and they went off with someone else (again).. Heartbreak number two.
Now its been 13 months - and I have stayed single the whole time. I have been on many many many dates and seen a few people here and there - and each one has shown me that being single has been the right choice, as each one of them turned out to be that type of guy (interested in one thing, liar, messy, etc)
Guys have said to me throughout this time that I am too strong, don't give much away or that I need to put my walls down... Each one of these guys, was a dick - so to them - clearly there is a reason for my behavior.
Its hard for girls - They get their heart broken, they get cheated on, sometimes abused, and yet guys continue to do it to them and tell them the reason that they are not interested is because the girl doesn't trust them or that they are too closed up. When really a true man would never say this - they wouldn't even mention it because instead they would be busy making that girl see that they have earned the trust, or making the girl feel that she can let her walls down because he would always be there to catch her when she falls.
If most girls are like me then they wear their heart on their sleeve, they fall for what you say, and they care to much, they pay attention to what you say, they start to trust, and all they really want is a fairytale. So they fall harder and deeper and in the end they get hurt - they always get hurt.
Nobody should ever change who they are for anybody. Nobody should ever waste their time on someone who would not waste theirs. In life things work both ways, trust is earned, it's not just automatically given, when you start seeing someone and if you have been hurt before, you are not just going to give them your world. Boys have definitely got lazy these days, not all, but most.
Bob Marley said 'If she's amazing - she won't be easy, If she's easy - she won't be amazing. If she's worth it - You wont give up. Truth us, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for'
So maybe that's where girls are going wrong - Maybe we need to carry on being strong - and not trusting, because when a true guy (a man) comes along, you will know, and then it's worth letting your guard down for, and being hurt for. So from now on - That's what I'm doing :)
But for now, Girls - Keep strong, and remember that a real guy will never change you or want you to change.
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