Dear Future Self
I am hoping you have come along way since I wrote this and that you have learnt from whatever has happened during now and to whenever you may look back at this in years to come.
17 years have passed, that seems a very long time when thinking about it, but I am guessing it has flown by.
By the time you read this, I hope that you finally became a paramedic, because right now at 23, it's what you want more than anything, I knew it would be a long journey to this, but I am hoping the journey and hard work paid off and that you finally achieved it. Now that you are more wiser and older, I am hoping you have stopped letting people get to you, the fact that you wear your heart on your sleeve and care to much is making you a little down at the moment, with people taking advantage and not appreciating you. However this is why I so desperately hope that you did become a paramedic so that you could use these flaws to your ability in your job.
Hopefully you have been enjoying life, with less worry than now, and less caring about everything so much.
If your still single than that's because your still in the state of mind that you was at the time I write this, with your walls up and focusing purely on yourself, saving yourself from hurt, and if your not single then he better be worth it (well he must have been if you let your guard down for him!). I won't lie by the age of 40, I'll be a little let-down if you are single and with no little bubba's or children. You have always been maternal, and always been mother material, so I know that if you are reading this now as a very happy mummy then I am sure you are showering your children with love and that all that time working with and looking after other peoples babies has come into good use, which is what I do now as I write this to you.
Most likely you have looked back on me, as the years have passed and led you to who you are now. I hope that you never looked back and regretted a thing, and I hope that you were never sad, or sorry for your past. Remember now, that it all had to happen for a reason, and be proud of all you have overcome. We always knew you were strong, and that's what we have always done, we have always moved on, because life goes on. Congratulations, for still being here, and still standing, sometimes it wasn't easy, and I'm sure after I even write this now that there are more obstacles that we are going to have to overcome, but we have had a-lot already happen to us in these 23 years, that I am sure that the next 17 will be a breeze, or at-least you will be able to deal with them, because you have grown so much and you already know that you can get through it.
Continue to love to much, and continue to care, because as much as it wears us down now, and makes us feel rubbish and down, you will change someones love, with your big heart, and that alone is worth it.
I guess writing to you and knowing your my future self, I am going to hope for the best and visualize the best possible version of events. But whatever has happened in the time that has passed, I just hope your happy, and surrounded by those you have always loved.
From your lost and found 23 year old self.
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