So when I was last writing, I was working as a nursery practioner, obviously I was still blogging, and well things were pretty content. I lived alone, well I paid to live in someone else's home, which I can't say I was happy with. My relationships were practically non-existent and messy, and well I didn't enjoy my job. I'd wake up everyday dreading to go to work, it was making me ill. So as much as I may of thought I was content, I can't say looking back in hindsight that I was.
A lot has changed. In the usual way my life goes, everything happens at once, and usually I have bad luck left right and centre. But it came to the point over the summer that I decided I wasn't going to live by letting my life be ran by everything and everyone else. So i quit work at the nursery I was at, I didn't go back, I couldn't face it, I hated everything about that job, a place where the staff are made to feel worthless and insignificant, over-worked and underpaid. I applied to work as a live-in Nanny and got the job, so in the space of a week I was moving house and changing job. I can easily say it was the best decision I have made, and has taught me that sometimes we need to take back control of our lives and remember that we can decide our own happiness, we are the creator of that happiness.
So that was two problems solved. I was feeling proud, accomplished and free, and I finally wake up everyday looking forward to work, as I genuinely love the job that I do. I am now putting more into my writing, I love writing, and I have missed it, and I'm not going to be able to be a nanny forever, so this blog is a great help.
The last month, some major changes, and experiences have happened. For the first time in my life, I saw someone pass away, someone i cared for, this was simply the most heartbreaking experience ever. The funeral was just two days ago. Im still not really in the right place, or even dealing with this right now, but I will write about this when I'm ready.
So It's been crazy, and emotional, as always. I always think I get to the point, where I've been through all I can, learnt all i can, and that surely there must be a content year around the corner. But i guess It wouldn't be life, or even realistic for that to happen. Life is a circle, and something is always happening, and we are continuously learning.
So here is to December, the last month of the year, It's good to be writing again.
