Goodbye 15'

It feels like yesterday that I wrote a post saying goodbye to 2014 and here I am again penning a post to say goodbye to yet another year. 2015, typical to say it feels like it came and went. That is the thing about time I guess it constantly ticks over, it's not like time stops or slows down for anyone.

The end of last year was a really hard time, and to see in New Years was not the easiest. But I was completely determined to make plans, to plan things and to make the most of the year. It still seems like yesterday that I was getting ready to go out. I had decided against news years resolutions as I do most years, but I decided like I said with setting goals and ticking off more of my bucket list. In general I decided to just start making memories.

Goodbye Nanny Life

Being a nanny saved me at a time when I most needed. These three little munchkins made me strong and got me through a dark time, it taught me so many things, how to be more selfless, patient, accepting and to see the good in life still. They taught me just a fraction of what it would be like to be a mum. To love, teach, play and to help mould these little lives. Leaving them was so hard, but at the same time I am so grateful I got to be a part of their lives and it is a time I will never forget :)

 
 

 Amsterdam

Amsterdam came the day after I left my nanny job, and it was my first trip away with my fork besty from uni, a thing we had planned in order for us to start making events to look forward to in our year. It was amazing to spend time together and do all these wonderful things and was one of the best times away. A time where I truly felt happy and free and like I had no stress at-all. Amsterdam truly has become one of my favourite cities and I was so happy to spend it with one of my favourites, it taught me how important it is to make events and plans you can look forward too.

 

Hello New York

I saved tirelessly after the new year to afford a trip to New York for me and my Mumma, as a surprise and treat for her. Nothing will ever beat being able to take her there fully exclusive. It was the best place ever. We managed to do everything in those 5/6 days and I will always hold it as the best times, I had always wanted to go there, and it lived up to it all. It made me so happy, to make my Mum so happy and seeing all those things together could never have a price on. The only bad thing is missing New York everyday since. :) It taught me that the world is a big place, with so many people, and you can never be alone in a big city when you have family or friends.

There was about a thousand photos I could have out here for New York, which means a thousand memories!







 

Phillyyyyyy

We did not stop there, because a trip to Philadelphia was in order. I am and always have been so in love with the rocky films and Sylvester Stallone since I was a kid. And I always wanted to run up the Rocky steps and see the statue. And I did just that. I was there when they film the new Creed film. I ran the steps, stood by the statue and I spent the day literally living my dream. What did I learn? That NOTHING is impossible, if you have a dream, do it, make it happen, tick your goals off the list. Just like Rocky would say!

 

New Job/Old Job

Nothing worse than coming back from the best two trips, and the best time off than going straight into a new job. Especially the type of job where you are overworked and taken complete advantage off. I very quickly started to dislike the job I had got, I love helping others, but where you are held with little respect and made to feel crap, I only stayed on as long as I did because I met a team of lovely girls and I didn't want to let a team down, but I learnt that you cant give your best if your not at your best, and if you are staying on for someone else than you will never be happy or free and in the end it was the best thing for it to end, so that I could go chase the best for me.

 

New Job

One thing that I am always proud of myself for is never being out of work. I hunted tirelessly and found my next step, and I finally feel like I am on the path I am meant to be. In the NHS, the healthcare service, dealing with emergency calls, dispatching ambulances, and then on to helping people with very strange things also. Everyday is different, and yes I work pretty much ever single day but I know this time I am making a difference, I know I have been part of saving life's. I sleep sound knowing I've done my part and knowing that the job makes sense. It needed to happen, I needed to know that I am on the right journey and path.

 

Friends old

Truth is I wouldn't be anywhere without my rocks, and I am so lucky to have friends who came and stayed and never left. Those who never judge, never leave and are there though the bad and the good, who never make me feel bad or crap, yet make me feel lucky and blessed. Those who I never had to doubt, who I may not speak to or see everyday, or even live near, yet if I needed them they would be there without question. The kind of friends you don't have to chase, or put in all the effort, the ones who remember you, don't leave you out, who want to be involved in your life and who would never not involve you in theirs. Friends are important and I will be making time for them.

Friends new

Then there are those new people you meet along the way. The friends you make and you think to yourself  that maybe everything truly does happen for a reason. Friends who were always meant to come into your life for a reason and as a plan, because as son as you meet them you all just click, you find common ground and your feel like you have always known them. <3

 

Family

I have always been a family girl, as I grow older I realise the importance of family ever more so. You start to hold on more, appreciate more, and learn that your family wont always be there. That every birthday, Christmas or family time could always be the last. Family may not always get on, be near each other speak especially in larger family's. Personally I am so close to my mum, dad, brother and nan and granddad,  and I do have cousins who I know we are close no matter whether its been weeks since we have seen each other. And sometimes, without saying it, you know the love is there, the bond, the one that is unbreakable purely because you don't choose your family. Over Christmas, I have got a little down knowing that as a family we are not all together like we used to be, and that the family gatherings no longer exist, and that things have changed. It does make me sad, and if I could have anything, it would be for all my family to talk, to be happy, to be together again. I miss, having an aunty or uncle I can go to whenever, I miss everyone getting on and appreciating each other, above all I just wish time could be spent together. I don't want to get older missing the family times I once had. But that's the thing about family, there will always be love, and I will always love them. I am lucky, to have the family that I do and the memories I will treasure. I am so blessed to have best friends who are parents and a best friend as a brother. <3 in 2016 I hope to spend more time with other family and to make bonds again. My heart truly is with my family over in Ireland, who have had such sad news throughout the year, and although I am not able to see them, my love is there with all of them.

 

Future

2016, it is the future, and the upcoming, and apart from making goals, there isn't much we can do until it happens, and till we live everyday as it happens, as what will be will be, and all you can do is tackle the bad and appreciate the good. I am thankful for 2015 and the memories and just want to thank all of you who have been there I love you.